Tuesday, December 18, 2012

Siapa dia di hati ku

Ada org bertanya .. siapa dia di hati ini..

dia mampu menjadi imam ku, tetap kan dan kukuhkan iman nye.. amin..
dia memahami jiwa rock ku
bila dia bertutur, lemah lembut dan tulus
bila dia menegur, mudah untuk ku menerima
dia berpakaian mengikut kesesuaian, merokok bukan style nya,
dia tenang,cool, bijak dan sabar dengan kedegilan ku, kepala angin ku
dia pendengar setia bila ku berbicara
dia menerima ku seadanya dan bersedia membimbingku ke arah lebih baik...
bila Allah izinkan .. akan ku umumkan kepada semua.. In Shaa Allah..
Moga di permudahkan ...amin..

Itulah dia di hati ini... :-)

Tuesday, December 11, 2012

Best ke Single Life?

Don't get me wrong..!!. .I Love being Single, no question on that and I Do enjoy each and every moment of my single life but there are times I need companion..bak kata Ella dlm lagu P.P.P, 'semua ada pasangan'..

When I need a hug no one there to give one
When I cry at night no one there to comfort me
When I stress and get mad no one there to calm me down
When I need to talk no one there to listen
When I forget about things no one there to reminds me
When I made a wrong choice no one there to tell me its wrong

I wouldn't feel so much emptiness last time because someone has always be there for me...
But the person who provides me all the above has gone to Jannah..

Regardless all the above...I am blessed of what I have.. Thank U Allah.. Alhamdullilah..


Monday, December 10, 2012

My very 1st Australia trip - Perth!

I was planning for this vacation right after I met my ex school mate in Jan 2012 during our reunion. She lives there for about 7 years now after she got married to Australian. I promise her I will pay her a visit eventho if I have to travel alone.




About 2 weeks before my trip, my ofismate asked me to accompany her for beach vacation but I told I cant because I already have planned. Then I ask her to come with me instead since Im going to travel alone...it took her less than 24 hours to think and decide...yap, the next day, she became my adhoc travel buddy..
my adhoc travelling buddy

night at Freo

US


we had so much fun throughout the trip... this is the 1st trip i have ever been without so much planning..just buy ticket, be there and do whatever necessary...
KIng's Park at night

Freo yo!


Pinnacle desert..

Sandboarding

get to know the kangaroo

The kangaroo trying to hijack the camera

oh yes..we had so much fun

Harbour ...

hahahahahah..

THe blue sky at the beach




What HAppen today 10/12/12

Bermula seawal 7am, berazam nak mulakan setiap pagi (weekdays je sbb weken agenda lain) dgn bersenam 5-10 min..
What happen today?
1. arrive ofis mcm biasa 9.15am
2. 12 noon ke KLCC ada lunch date dgn ex-colleague - which makes me realize dah lama aku kerja kat current company ni dan pembaharuan perlu dilakukan segera... most probably I return to previous industry..but aku selesa disini..(perkara yg perlu difikirkan dgn mendalam dan serius)
3. balik lambat 30 min dari biasa...stuck in jammed at Komuter parking area for an hour!!..arrrghhh penat nye and blm Maghrib lagi...berdoa bagai nak rak harap sempat sampai rumah b4 azan Isyak berkumandang.
4. Arrive home 15 min b4 Isyak..terus solat, baca yg rukun je..relax kjp and ON TV... BUT..OH NO!!! Astro Decoder rosak pulak...takde pun digital watch tu, dash dash ke...adapter pun padam..apakah ini?..call Astro : replacement within 3-5 days..paling lewat nx monday.. gone my fav series, bola Malaysia against Thai for this week..
 solution : reading book (ada 30 stok baru masuk hasil tangkapan di Big Bad Worlf), berbloging kejap...
yes, masih ada solution..takde masalah lah..ok je..  :-D
how's your day?

Thursday, December 6, 2012

Ella dah Kahwin...AKu bila pulak? Jodoh itu rahsia Allah..

July 7th, my fav singer got married....aku punyalah excited plus sedikit sedih..(boleh?..hahahahh). most of my close fren siap ucap tahniah ...congrats, kakak kau dah kahwin..hahahahhaah..
Dec 1st, her reception pulak. I am soooo happy for her, tersenyum2, tersengih tgk her wedding in TV. MOga berbahagia hingga ke Jannah ye sis Ella...

Dan aku terus berdoa agar aku juga ditemukan jodoh yang sekufu, yg aku suka dan bermohon agar jejaka misteri itu nanti akan menjaga ku sebaik mungkin, dan dialah yg terbaik untuk ku..
.p/s : dan yg penting tidak merokok..Ya Allah, kau permudahkan jodoh ku sebagaimana kau telah menemukan jodoh Ella...amin.. :-D

Those DAys...

-->While commuting to office today, looking at the people and overheard conversation in the train, my  mind flies to those days...

After graduation , I was doing various part time job such as food court, sales assistant, photocopy shop. I was so happy when finally I got permanent job as Engineer Sept 2001. Salary as fresh grad that time just RM2350, nett around RM1800.....car RM600..house RM180 (a room of 4 room terrace house)..no toll just car fuel and everyday meal....I smart enough to auto deduct my pay for saving monthly basis (but always withdraw when it comes to end of the month)...

Started my very first credit card CITIBANK....limit RM3k...swipe all around. Raya shopping, Braun Buffel, Elle, some clothings...swipe. There is time I only have RM50 in my acc and next pay day is in another 1 week and a half ahead....fuel for car, swipe.

I used to have this conversation with my housemate...an engineer but always have financial problem. Sometimes I even have to be calculative just to buy a snack set of KFC..so sad.. every time received yearly bonus will be used for credit card debt. In my account hardly to reach RM5k after 3 yrs working...its a shame and thats when I decided to learn how to manage my money wisely.

I read financial planing book, attend money management seminar and on year 4 of my career life, I managed to get rid all my credit card debt, constantly put aside for saving and not missing my parents monthly gift....I cancel all my credit card, left only one with no fee for life. Its tough at the beginning but I have to live with it. No parents help cos i have my ego. I know they knew.

Alhamdullilah, since 2006 till now, even though I don't live in luxury mode yet, but its comfortable, not yet in the state of financial freedom but its enough. I started oversea trip on my own, starting once a year and now 3-4 times vacation a year . I have several account to make sure I am financially OK on my retirement day. It might nothing to some people but it absolutely SOMETHING for me.

Some Importants thing I learn from financial planning seminar regardless of the presenter is Muslim of not..

1. GIVE FIRST..THEN USED
~ the more you give the more you get. Whatever amount u get, give out 5%-10% first(to ur parents, siblings,unfortunate)...balance is yours..

2. ITS NOT HOW MUCH YOU EARN, ITS HOW WELL YOU MANAGED.
~have you ever heard someone keep complaining about his/her financial even though their pay is 6 figures p.a...

3. BE GRATEFUL BUT STRIVE FOR MORE
~ be blessed of what we have but do not stop working hard to make better life..



Selamat Hari Raya Mama

Segala2 nya lain. Takde yang kurang mahupun lebih tapi ketiadaan mama amat dirasai. My tears drop slowly di pagi subuh hening tatkala azan subuh berkumandang Di Ikuti suara Takbir . Allah, terlalu sakit dada ini menahan sebak...berat kelopak mata menahan airmata yg bergenang.

Keputusan untuk pulang beraya di Singapura sememangnye tepat. Di kelilingi adik beradik, saudara mara mama helps me a lot. Tentu mama individu paling happy dan busy sekiranya arwah masih ada bersama, makan besar di hari akhir ramadhan seperti yg mama selalu inginkan. Tapi apakan daya, semasa hayat Mama, nenek dah atuk juga masih ada....kami selalu beraya di Melaka sebelum pulang ke spore.. Mama redha dan taat dgn kehendak Papa...Mama menantu Mithali.. Mama isteri Mithali.. Ma, isteri yg diredhai Papa...Allah janji Syurga untuk mu...insyaallah..

Ma, adik pergi Geylang 2 kali 2 hari dan sehari sblm raya. Mcm mama selalu ckp, best kan jln2 geylang mlm raya.... ;-)...abg beli sepasang baju melayu dgn samping...lepas tu kitaorang borong makanan berbuka puasa...curry puff,murtabak,putu piring,rojak...tapi disebalik kemeriahan semua tu...tidah sedetik pun minda adik lupakan mama... Ya Allah, mmg susah rupanya menghadapi saat2 tanpa mama....

mcm mana mama lalui dulu?..tanpa tok mat dan nenek..mama cekal. Mama sembunyikan rasa sedih agar kami gembira...terima kasih mama...

Ku cuba juga menceriakan suasana raya namun ada juga detik2 di mana aku mengharapkan kehadiran mama.... aku Redha ...tapi aku rindu.. Ku panjatkan doa pada Illahi agar mama bahagia di sana, agar aku diberikan kekuatan menempuhi hari2 mendatang..

Mama, kami semakin kuat mengharungi kerinduan ini dan kami berjanji akan sentiasa menghadiahkan mama dgn doa2 dan amal jariah... Semoga mama tenang disana dan berbahagia bersama parents dan anak2 mama yg lagi dua tu. Kami sentiasa berdoa agar bila tiba masa nye, kita akan disatukan semula.... amin..

Monday, March 28, 2011

My tears still drop...

Dear blog,

U have become my new besfren. These few days, rindu sangat kat Mama. I have so many things to share but there is no one for me to talk to. Papa lain..abg pun lain. Last weken , aku visit pusara mama after 1 month tak visit. I cant control myself bcos I MISS MAMA so much. I was so down. Terlalu lemah, terlalu sedih, terlalu rindu. On Sunday, aku pergi sorang diri. Just to be near mama alone. I told her I have bought new car...I told her I got bonus, I told her everything I want to tell her hoping that all that disampaikan pada Mama. I ask Allah to give me strengh like He gave to my mama before.... Right now i feel so fragile and lost...Ya Allah, kuatkan aku...

I go through mama recipe book today. Ada satu buku ditulis year 1981..I was 4yrs old by then. I come across my drawing , well actually my conteng2 in the book. Mama tak padam pun... mama biar je kat situ in between the recipe... My tears drop fast... I dont even remember I had my drawing in there. I have not open the book since then i guess....

When I was in kindergarden, mama send me by walking..its not near, but mama dont care. I was tough kid back then. Tak nak pergi sekolah...panjat pagar and all...Mama sabar layan..mama even wait for me till I calmed down....but at last mama found solution...Mama get me transport, so she doesnt have to walk, she just wait for me at the block. I was ok with transport...dah tak panjat pagar...

Thats what I mIss her most...Mama always has a solution for my problem. Ada sekali tu , aku goreng kaki ayam..and its meletup,minyak percik all over. If Mama still around, I would definitely call and ask her what to do. Last 2 days I burned my thumb...I told Papa, he just said 'ok ke'?...if Mama, mesti she give suggestion what to do...

I lost Mama...I Lost part of myself...I lost my energy... I am lost in this sorrow...
The last thing I want to hear from people is 'How are U?'..bcos i would lie to answer that question...I'm not OK...I am still recovering very slowly....

Thursday, March 10, 2011

I mISS u

52 days After you gone...

Mama, Every Second I'm thinking of YOu....Wajah Mama sentiasa terbayang..senyum mama...ketawa mama masih terngiang...ucapan Hello Sayang Mama for me every time i call selalu bermain dlm kepala ni.....

MAma I MISS U...

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

Ever Since

Hi My Blog....

Ever since My Angel return to eternity, I was down and devastated.
There is no day passed by without me missing her..
I was crying hard every time I miss her voice, miss her touch
I have no one to share the same way I used to share with her
My tears drop almost every day

How Am I gonna to live my life my Dear Allah....
Almighty Allah, Please give the same strength You have given My Angel before..
Please makes me strong in my Faith and Iman so I won't do stupid things..
Please guides me, love me, give Your Barakah and Redha as My Angle used to give me before..

I may looks as tough little lady....but deep inside I am so fragile, vulnerable..
I am Lost trying to find myself in this loneliness
I can go insane trying to talk to My Angel and hope she reply back..

I want her to be in happy and peace in 'that' world but I MISS HER SO MUCH ... And Almighty ALLAH, Please Help Me..

Sunday, February 6, 2011

Myanmar...Expect the UnExpected

Myanmar .... The Golden Land.The last ASEAN country in the list and we graduated.... From the internet research, this country seems not so safe. Some website said, u have to leave ur handphone at immigration, you have to have at least USD300 cash, there is restriction after 10pm (cannot go out), the people cannot be trusted and so many bad things...With regards of all that, we still proceed...
To make our perception worst, I met one Malaysian Uncle in the flight who has been working for 15 yrs in Myanmar...When I told him my itenerary and places to cover in 8 days, he said...u guys gonna die..I accept that as challenge cos our travelling motto is ' Impossible is Nothing..Just Do It'..and we set our mind, expect the unexpected..hhehehhhheheheh
And then...we arrive Yangon
DAy 1...
NOt so much to explore and do..check in into Ocean Pearl Inn GH (53rd street, Muslim area)...Cost us about USD8/pax per nite, exceptable room. No complain about it. Have our first dinner at Muslim Chinese/Thai restaurant few steps from Ocean Pearl iNN, attached to Orchid Hotel...had our first Roasted DUCK..


DAy 2 begin with flight to Bagan by Air Bagan airline. They served tuna croissant, juice, tea, fruits for an hour flight...Impressive...
From City to ..I dont know how to describe Bagan...at a glance, looks like desert...Bagan is nice place in its own way...in the middle of desert, there's so many sea coconut tree....about 2000 temple all over Bagan..since our trip is more like touch and go, we didnt cover a whole Bagan, just Old Bagan...good enough for those who get tired of temple easily... highly recommended to go around by horse cart (6000 - 10000 kyat per cart/ up to 3 person per cart). But if you have more time, can rent a bike...only 1000 kyat for a whole day.. Stay at New Park Hotel....NICE and Cheap...
In the evening, we went to Mt Popa to actually enjoy our 1st sunset at Myanmar....after a 2 hours beautiful scenery along the road, we arrived... to enjoy the sunset, we need to climb the stairs....I think more than 300 steps...its high + being surrounded by 'friendly monkey' + barefooted (not even socks are allowed) + so many 'shit trap' to be avoided = we didnt enjoy sunset bcos its still early. We view sunset while stop at wine making 'factory'...sort of.

NB : its good to ha
ve hotel booked before u go during peak season as those tourist attraction places can be very packed...However, you can make reservation a day before you arrive to the destination like we do....can ask the GH you currently stay to make a phone reservation to the GH on next destination ... better to have a list of GH u prefer.

Day 3, we proceed to Mandalay by 8am 'Express Bus' (USD10/pax). Bought the ticket a day before from the GH. Most GH will have this service. Cant help it but we do expect the bus to be express bus like we have in Malaysia....its 6 hours journey, ETA 2pm....
and When we see the bus...(the bus station is walking distance from New Park Hotel, about 10min walk...)..ok, get into the bus and stop expecting...just go with the flow, accept every situation as it is and adjust ourselves accordingly.. :-)..It is not an express bus at all, keep stopping for passenger to get in and out of the bus... local sit along the aisle (using small stool)...cross 2 rivers...desert..oasis...tar..cement road...stop for toilet and break twice....finally we arrive Mandalay. VERY different with Bagan..its a City like Yangon, 2nd largest city in Myanmar. USed to be Capital of myanmar during Royal era..
Arrive Royal City Hotel at 3.30pm...check in...4pm sharp we went to AMARAPURA, again to enjoy sunset..this place known to be the most beautiful scenery for sunset...it has teak wood bridge name U- Bein Bridge...we rent a boat to be at the middle of the lake for sunset and YES...its SPEECHLESS...
Day 4, Before that, do u see photo with the food...thats our dinner in Mandalay which cost us USD9 ONLY for 5 ppl.... ;-)
Still at Mandalay...continue our adventure to Mingun by ferry from Mandalay jetty...ticket 5000 kyat per person for 2 hours ferry ride to - fro (9am). We'll be waiting by a line of taxi...heheeh
eh..its cow cart...we took one taxi, go round Mingun...most of tourist opt to walk instead but I prefer to rent a taxi... 5000 kyat per taxi for 5 people + unofficial tourist guide who can speak fluent english, spain, french...
MINGUN is different and MAGICAL...the building, the bell...everything about it...back to Mandalay Land by 1pm...arrive 2pm, we straight away go to Mandalay hill....go up by pick up, and escalator...yes, they do have escalator at this temple. Alhamdullilah..we were so tired to climb another stairs anyway...
Need to catch the bus to Inle at 7pm(USD12/pax)...so, dont want to expect anything this time but still hope for the best...and yep, the bus is slightly better...free mineral water + face towel + no one sit along the aisle + its an express bus with 3 times stop for toilet and drink and no recline seat....still we can sleep on and off..no A/C cos Myanmar is winter on Feb. Night can drop to below 10 degree C at some places....but day time can rise up to 28 degree C...so , A/C no need during night time and we were freezing...

N/B: Most important notes about Myanmar transportation, nothing is punctual...Train even worst...u dont know when u arrive... ;-D...this is real, i'm not kidding..

Day 5, after 8 hours frozen and confusing journey...we safely arrive at Ngaung Shwe, big city next to small Inle town..well, at least bigger than Inle town....the temperature drop to 11 degree C when the pick up took us to our GUestHouse. When I said pick up...its a real pick up lorry and 4 of us seat at the back...one lucky lady seat in front with driver.. ;-D...about 1/2 an hour another freezing journey...( bus suppose to arrive at 4am..but we arrive at 6am..)..I cant even feel my nose..we check in at 7am in 4 Sisters Inn...here somehow another confusion, the lady who run the Inn let us get into our room,give the key but we didnt register like we did with other GH. She didnt even ask for our passport..given that we travel by bus for 9 hours, we just want to be in the room, freshen up and continue our itenerary...Immediately after check in, we arrange for our bus to Yangon tomorrow, boat ride to Inle Lake at 9am, laundry our jeans (just 200kyat per jeans...USD1 ~ 1000kyat..)..
Since we are the only group arrived that particular day, the owner gave us complimentary breakfast consist of plain pancake + toast + butter + jam + coffee/tea + banana...not bad at all.. ;-D...9am, boat ride started. Along the canal direct to Inle Lake accompanied by a group of gorgeous SeaGull...ITS HUGE LAKE makes be begin to imagine there might be an anaconda or Godzilla or Lock ness living in it..hhahahhhaa..its scary and makes me nervous really...proceed to the market and temple, we visit the water village, cotton Weaving factory and have lunch at the floating restaurant...Inle lake is where I got my worst sunburn...(9am - 5pm on the boat)...

Day 6, spend our morning cycling around town. Our bus to Yangon at 3pm. Visit to local market where we bought several nuts, Shan Tribe bag, fruits....the market is somehow interesting. we cycled around town and some village till lunch time at 12 noon....by 2pm, the pick up came and drive us to Ngaung Shwe (the bus stop to Yangon)...this time we do expect the bus is better based on previous experience that the bus getting better and better due to the journey time become longer and longer...bus to Yangon from Inle is 14 hours with 3 stops for break and toilet. Got water and face towel....this time, the bus almost half tourist, half local...along the journey, we need to walk through the border (we think) twice in the middle of the nite (like 2am and 5am)..

NB : many of Myanmar apparently can speak Malay due to working 3-6 yrs in Malaysia..almost everytime, we face difficulty to explain what we want or even we just chatting among ourselves, there will be Myanmar ppl approach us and speak Malay....we even got shopping guidance at Bogyoke Market who speak fluent Malay with Indian slang ... ;-D..somehow makes us extra careful to talk about unnecessary things among them...hehehehhehe..

Day 7, we reached Yangon at 6am. Get the taxi (this time real taxi as in A CAr.. ;-p )....Get to Beautyland II GH at down town 7am. The room not ready yet. So, we just leave the bag, face wash, brush teeth....go out and get breakfast..(imagine that we just completed 14 hours bus journey and we continue city tour.....horrible but we managed)...starving, we found Muslim restaurant (has been spotted while looking for the GH).....while eating like nobody bussiness....we somehow aware the waiter are actually looking at us...OMG...maybe we looks like we havent touch food for few days..hahahhahhahaha...who cares anyway...hahahahahaha..
Then, we go sigthseeing...not much to see really, just pick whatever important to let time flies while the room will be ready at 10am.
Get to our room at 10am....this time, we took few hours to sleep...after lunch time about 2pm, we proceed to Karawuiek park (dont remember the exact spelling)...spend time there, have fruits drink, photo session....then we proceed to Shwedagon Palace to experience last sunset in Myanmar...its up hill, more stairs and its worth it....met some Malaysian there .... Our last dinner at the same restaurant of our 1st dinner...more food order this time..1 roasted duck + 1 Crispy honey Duck + Soup +fried rice.....Everytime we eat regardless of breakfast/lunch/dinner..we had almost table full of meal and its all finished....

NB : its better to have Kyat in hand while in Myanmar. Change rate varies according to division (big city like Mandalay & Yangon can get better rate)..In Yangon, better rate can get at Bogyoke Market..DO COUNT YOUR MONEY AFTER CHANGE FOR PRECAUTION......May Shan GuestHouse near to Sule Pagoda also offer good rate... MOST IMPORTANT : DO BRING USD NOTES AS CRISPY AS CLEAN CLOSE TO NEW. They are very particular on that. One of our friend facing difficulty because her notes not new look. BRING SMALL NOTES IF POSSIBLE.

Day 8, our last Day in Myanmar dedicated for shopping at Bogyoke Market. Myanmar the golden land is actually well known as centre of all Gems...Sapphire, Ruby, Topaz, Moonstone to name a few...you can get it with USD10 and above...Jade..all is original but the price varies according to the grade and quality. So many Gems and Jewellary which I'm not familiar of but being a lady who loves jewellary, i bought myself MoonStone, jade ring, Quartz bracelet and earing.....some of us bought 15 bracelet, few necklace...we shop till drop...

We conclude our Myanmar trip with shopping spree and WE LOVE IT.... :-D

Highly recommended to those who love Scenic View at Inle, Gems Shopping at Yangon, Panoramic Image at Bagan, Splendid Sunset at Amarapura and Magical Touch at Mingun...