Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Kau Pergi Jua

2011 starts in a good shape at first untill 14th January ... I got into car accident. I dont know how its happen , i banged to the car in front of me..

Thats only a sign initially. 15th Jan 2011 is worst. My mum leaving me , my dad and my brother forever from this world. She goes in peace....like sleeping beauty. Her final breath ends in our hugs and prayer.... May mama rest in peace.. We let you go because we dont want to see you suffering anymore..I know you were in pain every time you breathing...

Allah has loaned to me the best Mama..Alhamdullilah.. I couldnt imagine to live this life without her before. However, after taking care of her due to her illness, witness her pain, I realise I have to let her go and learn gradually to live my life without her. She was my strength all this while. Being the only daughter, I have spent so many sweet memories, we fight, we argue, we travel only 2 of us,.. However I dont share her interest in planting, sewing..thats all goes to my brother... :-)

Now, my tears dry out as time goes by but the remembrance of her become stronger day by day. I still feel her last touch, her last kiss, her last hugs..thats all will become part of my life..still feel she's around.. I still have a conversation as if she is listening.... I lost her ..YES, but I have to keep moving.. Its not easy, I have to survive no matter what.. I miss her prayer for me...Now I have to keep my prayer for her...

WAlau apa pun yang terjadi..Berjalan lah tanpa henti..Semoga Pemergian Mu .. Tak Akan Merubah Apa Pun...Semoga Mampu Ku lawan Kesepian Ku...I LOve U Mama...